Sunday, January 1, 2012

new year's day

Today is January 1st, 2012. I have waited 24 hours for this day. You see, while I often like to take myself out of the New Year's Eve equation, I do so enjoy the freshness that January 1st always offers. You don't get very many chances to start over in life, but, every year, without fail, a new year comes and with it, another chance to get fabulous. You get another chance to right your wrongs, to change your weary ways, to nix your bad habits.

I very often don't make resolutions, or if I do, I am drawing a blank. Last year's resolution (if I made one) may have been to enjoy spending time alone, which is why I took those solo trips to Spain and Iceland... and why I completely depleted my savings, also. But, really, isn't following your New Year's resolution totally worth it? I also took a few improv classes, which I did alone. I meditated last night, alone in a group, instead of going to my friends' party or out to a bar with my other friends. Sometimes, I feel like I purposely forsake a good time with friends in lieu of doing my own thing, but I guess that's just how I need to do things. If that's what I needed for serenity, than that's what I have to do. SERENITY NOW!!

This year, I shall make a New Year's resolution. My resolution will be to try to live more simply and to get more quiet with myself, at least for a few minutes every day. I have time to take a few deep breaths and quiet my mind. Everyone has a different path. Some people have to make an effort to go out in public or to take classes. Not me, I have to make an effort to be quiet with myself. Maybe I'll make it a point to "forget" my cell phone when I go out, at least once a day. Maybe, I'll even turn it off for an hour every day. I need to stop bombarding myself with so much information that is inane and pointless. Facebook is pointless and yet, I check it every day, more than once... who am I kidding, I check it way more often than I care to admit. The thought of deleting the app from my phone just went through my mind, but for some reason, this scares me.

Maybe I should check myself into one of those camps for teenagers and kids in Korea and China who are addicted to the Internet. Maybe I need to go cold turkey. Do they make a patch or gum for kicking the ridiculous information overload addiction from which I suffer? Maybe, my New Year's resolution should be to create Interette, the new Internet gum that helps people kick their addiction, one chew at a time. Then, I could complete my other resolution of acquiring a shit ton of money. Did I mention that resolution? I would also like to wrap my hands around a sweet amount of money. And I'd like to put it into a place to watch it grow.

My last resolution, which I know I've already written about, is to get those abs I've been talking about. I want abs so tight that if someone were to punch me in the stomach, I would laugh at them. I want to be able to do crunches that would put a fit celebrity to shame. I want to put on a bikini and have people look at my abs in envy and ask how I have such amazing abs. And I would say, "oh, I work out a little bit, you know." This is how I do things.

As I write this post, I think to myself, I should just make one resolution. That resolution is to stay focused. Stay on track. Stop going off on tangents and creating reasons for myself to get distracted. This post is a perfect example of how I am in life. I get so distracted that I forget the original reason that I want to do certain things.

May we all make attainable resolutions for the year 2012. May we all have love in our lives, love in our hearts, serenity in our souls, piles of cash, and washboard abs.

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