I'm kind of obsessed with all things new agey. I love reading about astrology, and talking to people who have that sixth sense. I also visit psychics quite frequently. Call it a hobby; I love it. When I meet someone new that I take a liking to, one of the first things I like to find out is that person's sign.
Knowing the sun sign is interesting, but the real information comes from knowing his or her ascendant and moon signs. That's super telling. And when I call psychics (I like to talk to one of my three psychics a few times a year, sometimes talking to all three and comparing notes), I think it's funny that the things they pick up on usually have to do with the attributes of my rising and my moon (I am a Leo with a Scorpio rising and a Gemini moon... in other words: I. Am. Fucked. The Scorpio side of me takes no bullshit, sees through the games people play and calls people out, in other words, fucking scary. Scorpios also don't know how to let go of things and are extremely sensitive, moody, and brooding. We are also great leaders, loyal companions, and have good character. Enter Gemini. This is the moon talking. The Gemini side of me is really flighty, talkative, and high strung, anxious, if you will. We can live inside our heads a little too much and rationalize away our bad habits. We can also be our friends' biggest cheerleaders, funny, and airy. But the Leo in me usually wants attention and love and affection and for all to admire my very existence. Do you see what I mean? I am fucked.
And that is what psychics pick up on and I find it fascinating. They usually can tell (and I've never met Janet, my phone psychic who lives upstate) that I am very sensitive but really analytical. It's very difficult to live that way- being so split.
I wish that Janet would tell me the wonderful things she picks up on and it would come true within weeks or months. Sometimes, it takes a year before I remember things that she said. And, if that's the case, is it just a matter of piecing things together? For example, if she says, "there's a friend of yours that's upset, I see an M... do you know someone with an M?" and I think of Maria, chances are, Maria may have been upset about something or will likely get upset about something anyway. So then I'll notice in a few weeks that Maria is upset over a fight with her boyfriend. This may have been no big deal, but since my psychic pointed it out to me, I'm taking notice more. I don't know if this is real or fake; good or bad. I just find it interesting.
The other thing that I was wondering about is how much of it I am forcing to come true. The first time I saw Diane from Queens, she honed in on someone I was dating and she said, "you'll have a fun relationship. It'll be nice but it won't last. I see a big six... something to do with six" This is what she said. So, of course, for the entirety of that relationship, I'm asking myself, what is 6? Does it mean that we'll only date for six weeks? When we got past the six week mark, then I began looking for other clues having to do with six. I eventually found an answer, which is a little too private to share on a blog, but still to this day wonder if I made that six as big as it needed to be because the psychic brought it to my attention.
Also, the foreign travel. Diane, in one of my reading says, "I see a lot of travel for you. You'll be going out of the country this year." I hadn't been out of the country since 1998 except to go to Canada a few times, which I hardly consider foreign travel. Now, did she put it in my head that I need to do this? Did she give me that push that I needed to renew my passport and finally book those trips I had wanted to go on for years? At any rate, I did travel abroad this year. Twice. Alone. And I'll never know whether Diane put that in my head or if it would have happened anyway.
I guess, for me, a psychic helps me sort things out in my mind. She gives me hope; something to look forward to. Sometimes, she gives me a nudge in a good direction. The thing that they always say (and this is probably why I keep going back; because I love and need to hear this) is, "don't worry because you are exactly where you need to be in life. You're in exactly the right place."
I know this is the case... but sometimes hearing it from someone else makes it so much more powerful. Even more so when you're paying them to hear it.
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